Rewrite from July 9, 2004
I am working on the way I get complete with time.
Searching for answers, being the one sitting up front with a hand up, an identity of ‘knowing-it-all.’ Out to please the teacher, till the epiphany that asking good questions leads to more fertile ground than any answers ever did.
What answer ever opened more than one door?
A good questions leads into the magic of the unknown.
People open up when asked, “Tell me about your hair, yourself, your life, your dreams.”
Who wants to listen to a know-it-all?
So this week’s homework was to write essays on the following questions:
How do you make a difference?
How do you get what I want?
How do you let go?
· Who do you trust? What part of you?
· Who is responsible?
What is your question?
I took on the exercise, I answered the question on one side of a sheet of paper, explaining my answers were not the RIGHT answers, only my answers, and to anyone who would listen to have fun finding their answers on the other side.
Someone wondered about YOU, the consitent reference to you , so I rewrote the questions. It was like the difference between ‘This and That’-exercise 19 ReSurfacing.
· How do I make a difference?
· How do I get what I want?
· How do I let go?
· Who do I trust? What part of me?
· Who is responsible?
· What is my question?
Now that felt much better.
I once wrote a poem that said ‘words that will set me free.’ But those bold charged words listed below send me to a prison of separation and limitations. I want them out of my interactive vocabulary. I want freedom from words that fix my attention. Here’s some examples of the culprits:
· Oh, its you.
· You should ‘stop anything and everything you are doing right this very moment, and register for the next course.
· I’m trying.
· I worry about the money.
· I hate it when I’m told what I ought to do.
· Whatever, I’ll start tomorrow.
Bold words that shackle creativity. Bold words that bind transparent beliefs.
(From ReSurfacing- “A belief is transparent when you are operating through the belief without noticing it. Transparent beliefs are seldom helpful and, in fact, can be fatally debilitating. Most are self-sabotaging, adopted in a moment when you were something less than rational.
“The first impression you have of a transparent belief is that it is unquestionably true. That just the way life is. That’s the way I am. Here’s the proof!” (Page 111)
These bold words are the handcuffs that limit. Words that creates suffering for our self and others. These bold words are source for blame, for without you, who can I blame?
I loop around an invisible enemy by worrying. (Alfred E. Newman channeled higher wisdom to teens and preteens in the 1950’s with WHAT ME WORRY? MAD magazine was an incredible well of another way to look at the art and culture of the times.)
I lock myself to nonsense when I try. Just try and stand up! You either stay seated, or stand up!
It’s a word that try’s my patience. Decide, use your will, focus your attention and just do it! Oh the wisdom being used by the advertising gods.
I exhibit my weakness when I think I should. Should can be a deliberate helper in deciding. But it is internal; operating only in my own biosphere-if I should, then just do it! But I should not tell you what you ought to do. That’s stealing, manipulating your source, nonsense, or just plain stupidity.
And the biggest lie, the greatest threat to creativity, to compassion, to humanity, to building an Enlightened Planetary Civilization (EPC) is tomorrow. It’s a disease, and along with its nowhere friend whatever, has become an epidemic of the current plague.
The disease of tomorrow. It may be a whiff of hope sung by a curly haired, pre pubescent that it “is only a day away.” But another more poignant view comes from a duo of pop rockers who guided us from the 1960’s with “still I continue to pretend, my life will never end…”
Not to be forgotten the sinister one, hate. Isn’t there another way of looking at “oh how I hate to get up in the morning.”
It is possible to have love without hate.
If you hate Lima beans, is it possible to transfer the hate to another person’s belief?
So what happens if you remove, discharge, eliminate, those bold charged
words?
Perhaps just asking the question, what if you hate to try and worry about what you should or ought to do tomorrow?
Whatever.
Namaste
Gary